AOL Instant Messenger Literally Ruined My Life

To this day I don't tell anyone the truth about ANYTHING because of this single incident. Not my therapist, not my best friends, not my parents, not a soul. I jus keep all my emotions to myself and it's exclusively because of this one lie that I don't even know if it was true. Like I don't know they actually told those girls. They probably didn't. And I've let it affect me for 20+ years.