Parts Of Avicii's Diary, Including The Day Before His Suicide, Have Been Made Public, And They Are Heartbreaking To Read

TMZ- Avicii's final words before taking his own life have been revealed in a new book, and it underscores the tragedy.

As we reported ... the 28-year-old Swedish DJ committed suicide back in April 2018, using a broken glass bottle.

The grim entries were written while he was in the hospital and in rehab ... He wrote, "Those days in hospital were the most anxiety and stress-free days I can remember the past six years, those were my true vacations, as depressing as it might sound.”

The EDM singer opened up about his long battle with drug and alcohol abuse... "I had a hard time accepting never drinking again though strongly suggested from all doctors to wait at least a year before even having a beer.” That had shades of a dangerous turn in the rehab movement -- California rehab, which suggests addicts can drink moderately and smoke weed. Experts say it's a recipe for disaster.

He went on ... “Of course, I didn’t listen to the majority of the doctors, I listened to the couple who said it was OK if I was careful. I was ignorant and naive and touring the world, still on the never-ending tour ..."

The day before his suicide, Avici wrote, "The shedding of the soul is the last attachment before it restarts!"

This story somehow continues to become more and more heartbreaking the more that comes out about it.

I didn't think it could get worse than watching Avicii (Tim Bergling), run himself into the ground, with the help of his team around him, in the Avicii documentary. Right up until his death. 

But now news of his official biography being released next month, and excerpts of it being made public and including his diary entries make it even more sad.

This kid was living the absolute life it appeared to everybody on the outside looking in. Traveling the world, playing huge stages in front of massive crowds in some of the most beautiful places on Earth, making millions and millions of dollars. And he was only a teenager. It seemed he had the world by the balls. Except that he didn't, and he was living a tormented life inside his own head that he couldn't escape. He tried self-medicating with drugs and alcohol but that only made it worse. 

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Reading him write that his calmest days he was at the most peace was when he was confined to a hospital bed is so fucked up. 

I know EDM isn't everybody's favorite music in the world, but if you're a rational person you're still able to respect the hell out of Avicii's talent and what he was able to accomplish at such a young age. His story falls right in line with many young artists from all different worlds of music that are deep down these tortured souls, yet are somehow capable of gifting the world with incredible material, either in spite of those demons, or due to them.

If you haven't seen the Avicii doc, it's worth a watch. It's a great blast from the past as well as a worthy reminder of how important it is to pay attention to our own and our loved ones' mental health.

R.I.P.