I'm Shy But I'm Not Shy…It's Weird
Do you ever feel like you’re the only person in the whole wide world with a specific personality trait, quality, quirk, interest, insecurity, ailment, fingerpr- probably not, huh? But I do. I’m different. Luckily for me though, in the golden age of the internet and social media, I get the chance to connect with fellow weirdos on different platforms. Which helps me feel a little less like a hopeless misfit sometimes.
As an old fashioned, self loathing Aquarius, I always felt like I’d never find “the one.” I’m just too big of an oddball. I didn’t think it was possible for me to ever find a "soulmate" who could help me learn to love myself and open up about my emotions. I always felt like I’d be stuck with a bunch of hoes and pretending like “I’m fine” for the rest of my life.
Until this past weekend, like a sign from God herself, a tweet surfaced on my timeline that made me realize that there are women out there who have the same weird, inexplicable personality as me. Well, at least one.
Upon first glance, this tweet may seem like a paradox of sorts. And that’s because it is. How could someone possibly be both shy and not shy? While a regular person certainly couldn’t display those conflicting personality traits, a small percentage of some of the weirdest and most complex humans are actually capable of experiencing this phenomenon. Trust me, I know from many years of experience…
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Because I’m one of them…
So what separates me and Marie from the rest of the world? What makes social freaks like us different from everyone else? Let me break it down for you.
Exhibit A: Being Shy (Uncomfortable Environment)
As Ms. Suga pointed out, our shyness is directly correlated to our comfort levels and the energy around us. In this scenario, I’m exhibiting introverted qualities (shy behavior) solely because I’m surrounded by negative energy (a boy with a behavioral disorder throwing a tantrum) and in an uncomfortable environment (a Catholic school auditorium filled with threatening strangers and suspicious faculty).
Exhibit B: Introverted Extroversion (Semi Comfortable Environment)
This is where things really get complicated for me and Brown. On occasion, we’ll demonstrate a rare balance of both introverted (refusing to make eye contact or look at the camera) and extroverted (being in the same vicinity or room as a childhood friend or colleague) qualities.
Exhibit C: Not Being Shy (Comfortable Environment)
Despite being in the presence of an older girl, I still exhibited extreme extroverted qualities in this situation. This is because I was completely comfortable with my environment (on an inviting porch with a welcome mat and blossoming flowers; wearing proper-fitting clothes and ideal footwear).
So, now that I proved that me and Brown Suga have the exact same peculiar personality qualities, it begs the question…
Are we……soulmates? Well, it’s hard to say…
Sure, there’s a flock of imposters pretending to be silly geese for attention and clout, but I can promise you there’s no one out there who is truly as weird as me and Brown Suga.
Case Study 2: The Spectrum?
I know what you’re probably wondering right now, and the answer is yes, there are people out there who manage to get even weirder and more bizarre with their personalities and interests.
I think these tweets, as well as the one published by the young lady below, threw a lot of people for a loop. Hell, the possibility of someone simultaneously being on both ends of a single spectrum does seem outrageous on paper. But I resonated. Hard.
Not only am I on both ends of the spectrum, but I’m on every single part of the spectrum. I am the spectrum.
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