The Blackhawks Need To Stop Giving Me Hope

I am a romantic and an optimist by nature. I want to believe in things. I want to have hope. It’s…just not healthy when it comes to the 2019-20 Chicago Blackhawks. I grew up in a religious household so maybe that’s why I have the ability to be delusional and then tell myself there’s virtue in that delusion. That’s where I am with the Blackhawks. I’m my own worst enemy…other than maybe the Chicago Blackhawks. Last night was the perfect example. Last game before the All-Star break. A first place team coming into the building and the Blackhawks walk out with two points… and I start to feel good.

Like…I know what the math says. I know. I KNOW. It’s says the Blackhawks have a 1.2859% chance of making the playoffs or something.

But that power-play is ON FIRE

They have actually looked pretty good defensively lately. They limited the Caps on sunday pretty well 5 on 5 and that 2nd period last night was one of their better periods of the entire year 5 on 5.

Then I look at the standings and see a big pile of trash ahead of the Blackhawks

Only 7 points out, they have a “weak” schedule in the second half…. and now I’m making Tony Romo sounds. Aaaaahhhhh mmmmmm ooooohhhhh aahhhh mmayyyyyyyybbbbeeeeeeeee

Then as soon as the Hawks lose a game this fucking account will pop up on my screen and I’ll be depressed again

Slapped in the face with reality. I have no idea how they come up with these odds, but people who know math scare me and I just inherently trust whatever numbers they throw up. I just can’t ever give up on a team with Toews, Kane, and Keith. I can’t. I’ve been conditioned to believe no matter what until I die. I remember the Nashville series where the Hawks got absolutely SMOKED in the first three games and I was pretty cocksure that the Blackhawks would come back and win in 7 games. It’s unhealthy at this point. I keep trying to move on to next year mentally and I can’t. I can’t get there on my own. I need the Hawks to do me a favor.

KILL ME. Remove all semblence of hope. I need to be put down. The Hawks are off until 2/1. What I really need is a trade that says “we are mailing it in, you can rest now, Chief”. Gustafsson, Kruger, Ward, Kunitz, Murphy(?), and guys like that. Be clear sellers so I can mentally adjust. Otherwise I am going to convince myself that they are one 5 game winning streak from being in that last Wild Card spot. And that’s where I want to be. I want to be in the playoffs. I want to watch my team competing at the highest level. I want to stay up until 3am for a triple OT game. I want to be sick for months because I’m not sleeping. I want to gain 15lbs because I ate Costco size reeses peanutbutter cup containers. And I will never fully give up until there’s a 0% chance.