So, my experience with Adderall is pretty limited. I’ve taken it a couple times, but I don’t think it’s for me. That’s because nobody gave me the heads up that it’s impossible to get a boner when you’re on it. Don’t congratulate me on the sex, because my dick looked like one of those used car lot blowup people.
But if you’re taking Adderall for what it’s actually supposed to do, the shit works. Thank you to former NFL punter turned Barstool Sports podcaster, Pat McAfee, for the research.
Former San Francisco Giants first baseman/outfielder Aubrey Huff knows that it works, too. Huff’s got a book that just came out in February called Baseball Junkie, so he’s doing the media rounds and went on Buster Olney’s podcast to talk about “his struggles with anxiety, addiction and the day he almost took his own life.” In the interview, Huff talked about his Adderall use during the 2010 season that ended in a World Series title for the Giants.
“I think at the end of the 2010 World — we win the World Series in 2010 (with the San Francisco Giants), I was seventh in the league in MVP voting, leader in the clubhouse, offensively I carried the team,” Huff told Olney. “You know, I was having a great year, one of the best years I’ve ever had obviously with winning the World Series. The next morning I woke up next to my wife after we won the World Series, and I looked her dead in the eye and I go, ‘Huh. Now what?’ It was a feeling — I was coming down from my Adderall — it was a feeling of worthlessness and emptiness because I worked my whole life to win a World Series, but I felt so empty inside and so ashamed.
“So I went through that whole 2010 playing under the influence. … I think in a lot of ways, Adderall is more potent than any steroid you can take because, as you know, baseball is a game of mental toughness, and Adderall gets into your head and makes you feel invincible.”
It apparently got so bad that Huff almost took his own life, among other bad shit happening.
Huff’s struggles with Adderall apparently took a major turn for the worse in 2014 when he contemplated suicide.
“In 2014, I found myself in my closet, on my knees, with a .357 Magnum, hammer pulled back, staring at myself in the mirror,” he told Olney when asked what his low point with addiction was. “… I was ready to pull the trigger. This was a low-low point in my life. I had hit rock bottom at that moment.”
Huff went on to explain he was first given Adderall by a Baltimore Orioles teammate in 2009 to cope with a hangover, which he said stemmed from his daily use of alcohol.
“I just popped it naturally and within 30 minutes … it was a feeling of euphoria that I had never felt in all my life,” Huff said. “I knew right then and there I was going to take this stuff the rest of my career.”
The 40-year-old Huff later admitted his Adderall addiction also led to a gambling addiction, and nearly ended his marriage.
Now, I don’t know if it’s fair to draw a link between Adderall use and suicidal thoughts, a gambling addiction and a nearly failed marriage. It sounds like this guy had his fair share of problems outside of an Adderall addiction. But like I said, although my personal use was very minimal, I’ve had friends who were DEEP into the Adderall game, so I’ve seen what this stuff can do when used daily. Some have come back and are normal again, and some are still a shell of their former selves.
The ones who have come back from daily use and ditched Adderall entirely have all said the same thing — how the fuck is that shit even legal? I think we’re gonna look back on this Era of Adderall years from now and be like, what the fuck were doctors thinking prescribing us that shit? It’s like when dentists used to use cocaine as an anesthetic. You got a toothache? Here, rub some coke on your gums. Oh, you can’t focus? Here’s some meth.