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My 469-lb Life

Hi, my name is Duggs and I am a Unit.

Yesterday, I weighed myself for the first time in a long time. 

The result was 469. Not surprising, but still upsetting. Months ago, I purchased a scale online that would be able to accommodate my weight. For months, it stayed unopened, in its box in the closet. I would occasionally think about it and tell myself that I would open it once I got to New York or pick an arbitrary date that sounded good. Well, yesterday sounded like as nice a day as any to finally open it up. It was the day after Memorial Day Weekend and landed on the first of the month. I don’t know if that’s OCD or some trick of the brain, but either way, it was a good day.

I would ask myself “How did I get here?”, but it wouldn’t be a genuine question. I feel it would only be asked in some lame attempt to redirect responsibility away from myself and away from my actions. I know how I got here. Poor diet and lack of exercise. It really is that simple. There are of course some people that have medical conditions that can severely impact their weight beyond the persons control. I am not one of those people. I eat and drink too much, too often and don’t exercise enough, even on the rare occasions I do. So, I won’t focus on how I got here. Instead, I’m going to focus on how I get to where I want to be.

I have somehow lucked myself into an amazing life changing opportunity here at Barstool. I want to take advantage of it. To fully do so, I need to be healthy. I need to be able to walk 18 holes (not just mini golf). I need to be able to comfortably sit in an airplane seat. I need to be able to be active. I’ve missed out on so many things in my prior life because I convinced myself of the lie that I didn’t want to do those things anyway. The truth is it was easier to lie to myself than it was to change my ways, but that only works in the short term. With this fresh start and as I see what awesome things await me in the future, that lie no longer works. I'm all for being "Body Positive", but if I really love my body, I need to take care of it. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being a Unit. This isn't about not being a Unit, it's about becoming a smaller Unit so I can enjoy life for a much, much longer time. Not just for myself, but for my friends, family, and fans. 

So, it’s time to get to work. Step one is taking step one and figuring out step two on that walk.