What. A. Headline.
There's so much to unpack and learn about, but let's start at the beginning... meth makes you want to gouge your eyes out?
PEOPLE - Kaylee Muthart horrified the world when she gouged out her own eyes during a meth-induced psychotic episode. Hallucinating wildly during the Feb. 6 incident, the 21-year-old from Anderson, South Carolina, ripped out her own eyeballs, squishing them in her hands while a shocked onlooker struggled to restrain her.
Jesus Christ. If that's not one of the most terrifying stories you've ever heard, then you should really keep your stories to yourself because the world isn't ready for them.
I can't even begin to imagine the amount of drugs that have to be coursing through your body in order for you to actually be able to rip your very own eyeball out... with your hand! And not just one, but both of them! It's one thing to be so fucked up and do something stupid you instantly regret, but to do it twice? That can't possibly be an easy task to physically execute based solely on the body's natural desire to protect itself from pain, much less as several people are attempting to restrain you.
In her delirium, the young woman fought off help from locals who tried to stop her. It eventually took a team of deputies to control Kaylee long enough to render aid before she was placed on a stretcher and flown to the trauma unit at Greenville Memorial Hospital…
“The drugs take your fears and beliefs and amplify them,” she tells PEOPLE. “I thought I had to take my eyes out to survive and save the world.”
I'll admit, I'm not a drug gal and a bit of a control freak so while I don't personally understand the "pleasure" people get from losing control, hallucinating, and being out of their own body and mind, I could see why some people might enjoy the escape. But who the fuck wants to amplify their fears? NOTHING about that sounds wonderful. Is the real world not scary and disappointing enough that people need to take drugs to feel that on a deeper level? Hard pass.
However, it is worth pointing out that Muthart thought she was gouging her eyes out not just for her own survival, but to save the world. Sure, they were delusions, but had they been real, they would have been acts of unimaginable selflessness and we would all owe our lives to her. In that world, she was a hero.
Unfortunately, in this world, that cruel hallucination left her blind for the rest of her life. But that doesn't mean she can't still be a hero. Her terrifying episode should serve as a cautionary tale for anyone who is maybe thinking about dipping their toes in the meth pool. (Is that something people casually think about?) Maybe those people will now stop and ask themselves if the possibility of ripping their eyes out is worth the trip.
As for Muthart, it's been 2.5 years since the incident and not only is she clean and sober, but as of last week, she has new prosthetic eyes in place.
POST- On Wednesday, she finally received her prosthetic eyes from Dr. Joseph Gorrin of Gorrin’s Clinic in Greenville, according to the news outlet.
“I was so excited to get them,” Muthart, who is enrolled in blind school, told The Sun. “I just wanted to appear more normal to the outside world… I’ve come such a long way from two years ago. Coming off meth was awful, physically and mentally. There was hallucinations and psychosis, but I overcame it thanks to God.”